It's been a busy, busy summer for us. Business is going well and we are keeping up with July being our busiest month of the year. It's good for our family but I feel an overwhelming amount of guilt a lot of times. While I get my work done, I'm just exhausted by the end of the day and hardly available for playtime with the kids or interested in holding conversations. My energy level is decreasing and my insomnia is becoming more of a problem. Sounds like an oxymoron and its hard to explain. My mind races but my body wants to rest. Still over committed and feeling compelled to pile more and more on. I'm working really hard on taking additional comittments on but sometimes I need those committments to take away the anxiety of this whole ordeal. weird when I say/write it.
We just got back from South Padre yesterday. We spent almost a week there. Got back just in time to be injected with the meds. I'm glad the week went fast as I am able to mark off one more day of chemo. I'm down to 4 - Only 4 more to go! Still scheduled to have my last dose on Tuesday, August 23. It's also my dads b-day that day ... I think it calls for a massive celebration!! Who's in?! :)
Padre was fun as always. Me, Doug, Austin, Addison, Kelly, Wes, Randi, Mom and David. I learned to play washers, we drank a ton, ate a ton, went out to hear a band for Kelly's 29th birthday one night, danced our hearts out, and most importantly - I was able to put my feet in the sand and play in the waves .... ahhhhhhhh ....
We celebrated Kelly's 29th birthday listening to a Funk Cover Band and then doing Karaeoke. Mom lasted till almost 2am! (Kids were back at the condo with David). I don't know if it was too much sun exposure or a horrible hangover from a Jolly Rancher Shot but I felt terrible the next day and gave a little back after a nice mexican breakfast :) ewwww ...
My chemo session today was better than usual today - It was quick and I slept the entire time! My favorite nurse, Pat, administered me today and for some reason she just makes it all not so bad. I fell asleep withing 5 minutes of the Benadryl flowing and woke up after the Taxol completed. Went and had lunch and then spent the next few hours in bed getting through a million emails. got a LOT of work on my plate tomorrow.
It's hard to believe I (along with all close to me) have been going through the breast cancer diagnosis for 6 months now. I look forward to to the end of summer and the beginning of fall and winter! The simple things - such as Thanksgiving have me more ready than ever!
We have the kids this evening - Mom and David are still living it up on the Island. We are taking them on a Bat Boat Cruise on Town Lake. The wonderful Wonders & Worries organizes it and invites all the parents and kids for the evening. This is a good time to visit with other survivors and their kids as well. If you haven't had a chance, please visit the Wonders and Worries website.
Off to pick up Addison from school and begin our funfilled evening. xxo - Mindy
