Wednesday, Feb 9

So ... my last blog may have terrified some and scared away others.  Believe me when I say my anger and emotions have gotten the best of me.  Thank you for understanding while I rant away through my writing as I jot down everything to not forget it.  At some point, I'll print all of these entries out and look back when I think things are tough and hopefully be able to laugh about my emotional roller coaster and diagnosis.  When I am cancer free this will all be just one battle I overcame with the help of my family, my doctors, and my faithful friends.

My bone scan and chest xray results came back - the results were NORMAL!  I think that was better news to my mom than anyone.  I was honestly tired of waiting around for test results so I kind of put that one out of my mind.  I didn't even know what results I was hoping for - a negative something ... My mom insisted that I bug the shit out of the Oncologists office till I heard some results.  I figured she was right since the first time she told me to call the dr, so I figured I had better listen to her this time too.

Had another couple of appts today at the hospital - everything is moving right along, although I wish it were going faster. 

I also learned recently that there is a whole world of HELPFUL young (in 20s and 30s) breast cancer survivors here in Austin.  The women I have spoken with have all been extremely positive and uplifting.  It's a different type of comforting family that helps you cope, deal, and accept.  In a strange way, I'm glad to know these fantastic women were strong enough to battle through it and even stronger enough to talk with me about my fears and their progress. 

Tomorrow, I am having dinner with a woman my age that went through the exact thing.  I am very excited to speak with a woman that knows this inside and out who isn't wearing a lab coat!