My treatment on Tuesday went well. I saw my Oncologist first who I had remind me why we are doing this again. I guess there is still that thought of "did someone switch my lab results? did someone have a mix up in the radiologist department? Was someone tampering with my slides?" So she reminded me and again used the word "CURED" with me. So, I'm happy to report that my doctor says they are very optimistic about me being CURED from breast cancer - AFTER chemo.
Well hell, chemo down right SUCKS! I've had allergies, I've had the flu, I've had a cold, I've been pregnant, and I've given birth. This tops it! I'm helpless and doing everyhting I can to stay focused on my day to day activities. Kids in and out of the house, in and out of school, to and from baseball games and practices, and still trying to help run a business and keep my work from piling up on top of me.
My social life has gotten more and more complicated as well. I love all of my friends and I love to see them. I just feel so damned embarassed and tired and definitely not myself. The chemo kills not only the bad cells, but it kills the good ones too. It's doing a pretty big job and I can only concentrate on getting my body back to recovery before my next chemo blast hits me. If my white blood cells aren't back to normal by the next round, they will put it off - SO it is in my very BEST interest to rest and relax my body and bring it back to (somewhat) normal. And now I know it does a little more on me each time.
This past session on Tuesday left me a little nauceous. I'm at Day 3 from my treatment. I have the world's weakest stomach already and the queasiest little feeling has me thinking I am dying. Not to be a complete hypocondriac, but my stomach is a very sensitive one. This will come to a suprise to most and just so you knwo that I am not in my right sorts - Wine sounds terrible to me. Hopefully this is temporary :)
I have 2 more sessions of this coctail to go. One on April 26 and the next on May 17th. I have heard from my doctors that the mix I am on is more potent than the next 3 months. Beginning in May 24th I will begin to go to every week but apparently that isn't nearly as brutal as this one. Beginning May 24th I will have 12 weekly sessions and then I'm done! I can't wait long enough for August to roll around.
that's it for now - Mom's on her way over to help out while I drift off for a nap. Thanks MOM!
Hi Mindy,
ReplyDeleteThank you so very much for adding us to your blog. I have just finished reading your postings and my heart goes out to you and your family for the pain you are going through at this time. Cured you WILL be and this will all be a journey you can share with others and provide encouragement for those going through the same situation. You are a very strong young woman and one hell of a writer. I admire you for doing this blog for yourself and for all of us who love you and think of you and wonder how you are doing. This is an awesome idea and you are an awesome lady. God Bless you and keep you strong throughout the chemo process. Love you very much. Barbara
Mindy ,
ReplyDeleteI love you, and want you to remember that you are stronger than you think you are!!!!You have ALWAYS been the headstrong one, the one to get up and get rowdy!!! I am sooo proud of you for looking beyond the immediate heartache and showing your kids, husband and friends that we have to pick ourselves up and keep walking, even if we have to take a few breaks along the way. You are in my heart and prayers.....YOU WILL BE CURED, I believe my angel.
XOXO Amber